Not that Damon wants it advertised that he is a softy.
Castiel at least feels the same way about staying put. Regaining a
connection to Heaven though may just be too far out of reach but somehow he
can think of worse things that could happen.
"If you have ideas, my eardrums are not ruptured." Is that not the saying?
Ruby understands that. It's probably still something Gracie is figuring out.
Dean thinks that most of Heaven is filled with dicks and douches, but he understands that Cas wants that connection to Heaven, to home. He thinks it's a little like his connection to the Impala or to Sam, the things that make Dean who he is.
Dean chuckles, rubbing at the back of his neck. "All ears, Cas. You're all ears." Mostly he's stalling, trying to put together something that makes sense. "Some kind of spell. Something to strengthen that bond. Use the angelblade? I can't help but think there's got to be some sort of spell like that in all those books. We could talk to Sam about it. Maybe see if Ruby has heard of something like that."
Dean is beginning to trust Ruby and he's respected her ability with magic for a while (she did fix the colt and she made the badass demon knife). They might as well use the resources they've got at their fingertips.
Not all of his brothers and sisters in Heaven are douches Dean. At the same
time, it is not untrue that Castiel would want to keep a connection to
home. He does think it's a consequence to accept with choosing to call this
place home.
Cas just nods. It's what he meant. He's hard to know all the time when Dean
is stalling and when he is helping so the angel remains appreciative rather
than skeptical with where he's going with this. It lasts as long as the
time it takes for Dean to open his mouth with implausible ideas. "If there
were anything like that to exist, it would be God himself or locked away in
Heaven. I've never heard of anything that could do that." Something like
that couldn't exist because it could essentially make anyone an angel.
Thanks for trying though, Dean.
(Maybe there is something and Cas doesn't know about it yet.)
Okay, well Dean hasn't met those brothers and sisters. Of course, Dean doesn't want to think that there are consequences to choosing this place as home.
Dean is a very complicated person and so is the facade he puts up for everyone to see. It's obvious that Dean doesn't like that Cas is shooting down his idea. "We'll keep looking, Cas." He says it in that serious, sober tone of voice he has. Dean wants his friend to be as happy here as he is.
There would give Castiel no greater pleasure than to introduce Dean to some
of the siblings created around the same time as him. Cas hadn't informed
him before now because the upside outweighs the consequences.
The last thing he wants to do is give Dean a false sense of hope. It is not
his intention to shoot down the ideas Dean is brainstorming. There is a
moment where Cas realizes between them he creates the awkward silence, and
to remedy it he puts himself into Dean's shoes as Sam once suggested. "It
seems...there is no harm in trying. You've found the answer for the
impossible before." He accepts the outcome whatever it is though he knows
Dean doesn't accept change all that well.
Dean would meet the introductions with skepticism, but it's not a personal reflection on the angels. Dean just thinks Cas is the best angel.
It's a fine line to walk and really, Dean is insisting on hope because he's afraid of how Cas will take the change. Dean doesn't care if his friend is human or an angel as long as he's his friend and he's happy. He shrugs. "It'll give me something to do." There's a pause and Dean considers the situation.
"Are you going to be okay if you're human all the time? I mean...I know the human periods can be fun, but you always know they're going to end..."
Sam could tell them the unfortunate truth in finding out if Cas would like
being human is for him to experience it more. Dean can ask Sam to help with
this though. Castiel can only go with his gut and believe he will be happy.
Castiel searches for his own feelings about that. "It's fine if you do."
The situation doesn't seem all that bad no matter which way it lands. For
Lucy, he could be human.
"I need you to be okay with it if it happens. I believe I will be okay with
it when it happens. It happened before, remember, and there is much less to
struggle with here than there was a home." Food, water, income... all of
that is provided. Castiel takes joy in being able to be open to human
experiences and feel emotions at a much higher rate with a human soul than
what angel grace allots him.
Dean nods a little. Sam would be right: the only way to know if he'd be okay with being human is to experience humanity.
That gets a furrowed brow look from Dean. "Cas...as long as you're you, I don't care if your angel or human or...some sort of in-between. Yeah, sometimes it's nice having an angel on call, but it doesn't make any difference to our friendship. "You're happy. I'm happy, pretty much what it comes down to."
It is hard to know how to respond to that. Cas could agree that it is much
nicer to be the angel on call, but his friend telling him it does not
matter what he is sheds a weight on his mind that he had no clue was
present. "You-- Everybody here is safe, so I am happy whatever I happen
to be. It won't change my friendship with you either."
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Not that Damon wants it advertised that he is a softy.
Castiel at least feels the same way about staying put. Regaining a connection to Heaven though may just be too far out of reach but somehow he can think of worse things that could happen.
"If you have ideas, my eardrums are not ruptured." Is that not the saying?
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Dean thinks that most of Heaven is filled with dicks and douches, but he understands that Cas wants that connection to Heaven, to home. He thinks it's a little like his connection to the Impala or to Sam, the things that make Dean who he is.
Dean chuckles, rubbing at the back of his neck. "All ears, Cas. You're all ears." Mostly he's stalling, trying to put together something that makes sense. "Some kind of spell. Something to strengthen that bond. Use the angelblade? I can't help but think there's got to be some sort of spell like that in all those books. We could talk to Sam about it. Maybe see if Ruby has heard of something like that."
Dean is beginning to trust Ruby and he's respected her ability with magic for a while (she did fix the colt and she made the badass demon knife). They might as well use the resources they've got at their fingertips.
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Not all of his brothers and sisters in Heaven are douches Dean. At the same time, it is not untrue that Castiel would want to keep a connection to home. He does think it's a consequence to accept with choosing to call this place home.
Cas just nods. It's what he meant. He's hard to know all the time when Dean is stalling and when he is helping so the angel remains appreciative rather than skeptical with where he's going with this. It lasts as long as the time it takes for Dean to open his mouth with implausible ideas. "If there were anything like that to exist, it would be God himself or locked away in Heaven. I've never heard of anything that could do that." Something like that couldn't exist because it could essentially make anyone an angel. Thanks for trying though, Dean.
(Maybe there is something and Cas doesn't know about it yet.)
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Dean is a very complicated person and so is the facade he puts up for everyone to see. It's obvious that Dean doesn't like that Cas is shooting down his idea. "We'll keep looking, Cas." He says it in that serious, sober tone of voice he has. Dean wants his friend to be as happy here as he is.
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There would give Castiel no greater pleasure than to introduce Dean to some of the siblings created around the same time as him. Cas hadn't informed him before now because the upside outweighs the consequences.
The last thing he wants to do is give Dean a false sense of hope. It is not his intention to shoot down the ideas Dean is brainstorming. There is a moment where Cas realizes between them he creates the awkward silence, and to remedy it he puts himself into Dean's shoes as Sam once suggested. "It seems...there is no harm in trying. You've found the answer for the impossible before." He accepts the outcome whatever it is though he knows Dean doesn't accept change all that well.
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It's a fine line to walk and really, Dean is insisting on hope because he's afraid of how Cas will take the change. Dean doesn't care if his friend is human or an angel as long as he's his friend and he's happy. He shrugs. "It'll give me something to do." There's a pause and Dean considers the situation.
"Are you going to be okay if you're human all the time? I mean...I know the human periods can be fun, but you always know they're going to end..."
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Sam could tell them the unfortunate truth in finding out if Cas would like being human is for him to experience it more. Dean can ask Sam to help with this though. Castiel can only go with his gut and believe he will be happy. Castiel searches for his own feelings about that. "It's fine if you do." The situation doesn't seem all that bad no matter which way it lands. For Lucy, he could be human.
"I need you to be okay with it if it happens. I believe I will be okay with it when it happens. It happened before, remember, and there is much less to struggle with here than there was a home." Food, water, income... all of that is provided. Castiel takes joy in being able to be open to human experiences and feel emotions at a much higher rate with a human soul than what angel grace allots him.
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That gets a furrowed brow look from Dean. "Cas...as long as you're you, I don't care if your angel or human or...some sort of in-between. Yeah, sometimes it's nice having an angel on call, but it doesn't make any difference to our friendship. "You're happy. I'm happy, pretty much what it comes down to."
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Aw DeanIt is hard to know how to respond to that. Cas could agree that it is much nicer to be the angel on call, but his friend telling him it does not matter what he is sheds a weight on his mind that he had no clue was present. "You-- Everybody here is safe, so I am happy whatever I happen to be. It won't change my friendship with you either."