We need to have a talk (Sam and Dean S4)

[dudeimbatman]

Dean was not happy. He'd spent the night stewing over it while Sam was in another room with Ruby doing God knows what. Suffice it to say he is unhappy about Sam's reveal of his relationship with Ruby. They'd fought about it last night before Sam stormed out to spend the night with Ruby. Dean had gone to the bar to drink too many whiskeys before he returned to the motel room to see that Sam was still with Ruby.

Breakfast that morning had been an awkward, silent affair in which Dean had spent the morning plotting how they would ditch Ruby. Of course, that idea is squashed when Sam walks Ruby to her car, kisses her (gross), and loudly says "I'll see you there."

Dean grumbles "oh christ on a stick," then gets in the car and shuts the door, cranking the music up as he waits for Sam to join him.

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[dudeimbatman]

Personally, Ruby is glad the angel disappeared; She's terrified of him, though she won't admit it or show it. One argument or discussion point at a time is better for all of them. Dean won't argue with Ruby training Sam's physical abilities. He can't deny that she's good in a fight. He will have a little more to say about Sam's mental abilities though. That is for another day.

Dean looks over to Sam, a have you lost your damn mind expression on his face. "Sam...she's a demon. I get it. She gave me the 'I'm different' speech, but I can say I'm a bear and that doesn't make it true. Help me understand this because right now...I don't get it. If you weren't...you, I'd just say it was the sex because she's smoking hot, but you're not exactly led around by your dick most of the time."

[weirddreams]

Sam is also relieved the angel isn't following their every move; something about the way Castiel looks at him makes him feel uncomfortable or judged. He'd be relieved to know Ruby doesn't have that complication either if he knew what she thought. Yes, too many arguments might break them apart, and Sam doesn't want that when he just got Dean back. Unfortunately, Sam can't help Dean understand his mental abilities or connection to Ruby. That may just take time following the conversation.

Instinctively, Sam points to the road as Dean should pay attention to the traffic (namely the big rig closest to them). But he doesn't blame Dean for that expression and puts careful thought into an explanation. "You weren't there." Only so many ways he can pull the punches with that nugget of truth, but his voice is steady and calm. "She could have killed me if that's what she wanted to do; trust me, she had multiple opportunities. Instead she's gone out of her way to help me figure out my next steps. So as far as I'm concerned, she's earned my trust through her actions. She is different. We can't classify people as all good, law abiding citizens; I won't classify her as bad as the rest of them when all she's done is help. I think you should give her a chance to prove it. I can't help you understand if you don't."

[dudeimbatman]

It will definitely take time, but if Sam is willing to give him time, he'll get used to it.

Yeah, yeah. Dean sees it. The way Sam takes time to answer Dean is good. It tells Dean that Sam has put thought into this, that Sam is thinking this, Ruby, through. Dean rubs the back of his neck when Sam says Dean wasn't there. He knows and he still feels guilty for leaving Sam alone, but at least Sam was alive; he'd taken care of his little brother the only way he'd known how. Dean won't apologize for making that deal. Dean gives Sam a bit of a sideways look. "She took care of you?"

He sounds doubtful because he is, but he's listening.

[weirddreams]

He wasn't trying to make Dean feel guilty. More than anything he wished he could have changed Dean's fate but the deal Dean accepted left no alternatives. He will get to what Ruby proposed as part of how he trusted her or why she took care of him in due time. He notices that Dean is starting to listen a little, "She came back when Lilith ejected from her body." He won't go into the gamble he made by betting on the smoke that seemed to hover over the city. "She pushed me back onto my feet and covered our tracks. She stepped in when I'm not too sure I could have."

A coldness still feels like it's under his skin because he couldn't do anything to bring Dean back. He's grateful that Castiel did it for whatever reason there was for it. Naturally, his focus will eventually shift to what was even happening between Hell and Heaven.

[dudeimbatman]

“So she jumped back into her body and came looking for you. Why? What was in it for her, Sam? You? I’m not saying she’s evil. I’m just saying she’s not Mother Theresa. “ dean asks as they continue to drive.

After a pause, Dean admits “I’m glad you weren’t alone.”

[weirddreams]

Sam turns his eyes out the window. "Well, not exactly. I was going to bury her body too, but... It didn't work out that way." That's not the half of it. He feels a wave of exhaustion that there has to be any reason at all with Ruby. "Maybe. Maybe it's as simple as that. She doesn't want the world to mirror Hell, and neither do I. Ruby and I have some common ground." Even if he knew Ruby wanted a get out of Hell free card, he wouldn't blame her. There's a lot written on Dean's face since his return that tells Sam that Hell isn't a place demons want to be either.

He nods, his thoughts elsewhere. He knows it's not Dean's fault for how things worked out. "Nothing has to change with her in the picture. You're back now and we can figure it out. Give Ruby a chance, Dean."

[dudeimbatman]

Dean nods a little. He can tell Sam is holding back some details, but this isn't the time to push for them. It feels like Sam is telling him the big things even if he is leaving a lot of important details out. He sees that wave of exhaustion sweep over Sam, but he doesn't know what it's from. Unfortunately, Sam is right. If Ruby were human, Dean would be happy for Sam. There'd be no need for a fourth degree. "You have common ground with a demon, Sam? Just because Yellow Eyes pulled that bullshit with you doesn't mean you're anything like a demon." Sorry, but this is important to Dean. His baby brother is nothing like a demon (or what Dean believes all demons are like).

Dan sighs a little and pauses for a long moment. "One chance. For you, Sam."

[weirddreams]

Sorry, Dean. The last thing he wants is to fight about Ruby by sharing too much too soon. Why? He's worried Dean will reject him for continuing things with Ruby. As nice as it is to hear Dean believe in him (as far as his humanity goes), it still doesn't change that he feels different. He doesn't wish to fight about it either. "Not with any demon, Dean. With Ruby. I think you should ask her yourself what she wants." Truth is, he believes Dean needs to hear it as well as see it. He firmly Ruby is nothing like the demons they were taught to hate. She is no one close to as detestable as Yellow Eyes.

It's all he asks for, but he spends a moment deciphering how much Dean means it. "So you will talk to her?" When they get there.

[dudeimbatman]

Oh, Sammy. Dean would never reject him; he's incapable of it. Dean wouldn't know what to do with a life that didn't have Sam in it. Dean hesitates and then nods. "Fine. Yeah. I'll talk to hr when we get to the motel. We'll share dessert and chat about her feelings and motivations for you."

[weirddreams]

They always have been in communication one way or another. Sam hadn't been able to cut Dean out of his either. But the words have to come out of Dean's mouth. There isn't anything in any book that can tell him how far is too far with Dean. It takes a little effort on his part not to pick apart the choice of words.

"I think food is a good idea once we reach the motel. We skipped lunch already."