42nd Hunt [Video] But what is and what should never be.

[dudeimbatman]

[The device is sitting in the passenger seat of the Impala. For once the music is off. Dean is parked outside watching an impromptu baseball game between a father and his son. He grips the wheel of the Impala tightly so that his knuckles turn white. When he starts speaking it's softly.]

All I ever really wanted was Sam to get a normal life. To play baseball with our Dad. Do boy scout things with him--I don't even know what the hell boy scout things are but I wanted Sam to get to do it. Instead he got me staying up all night 'til I figured out soccer. We were never in one place long enough for Sam to join boy scouts.


People don't appreciate their normal lives. They don't realize how god damn lucky they are so they take it all for granted. I can teach the kid to play baseball later. I can skip boy scouts because there's a meeting next week. I can mow the lawn tomorrow. Or worse they bitch 'cause their lives are boring. They've gotta do this or that or something else.

Screw you all. You got to raise your kids the way you wanted to. You had time with them. You weren't crawling into bed with them holding a loaded shotgun at three in the morning because monsters are real and you're the only one there to protect them. You're not assuring your kid brother that he'll make new friends or stealing a bike that you're gonna have to leave behind when you move again.

[He shakes his head, cranks the car and pulls away from the curb]

It's all bullshit. You ought to appreciate the hell outta what you got.

[ooc: Dean is cursed with envy]

Comments

[manofgnee.livejournal.com]

Heh. Dean, I get you. God, I wish I didn't. But I do.

I hate it when people take things for granted...because they can take those little normal bits of life for granted. They don't have to worry about a ghost ripping through their organs and stopping their hearts...the most normal people gotta worry about is bills that they'll always be able to pay.

They actually get to have families and kids and nice, normal lives that they'll always take for granted and...augh. I hate it. I hate them.

I need a beer.

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

I need a whole friggin' bottle of whiskey. Meet you at the bar?

[manofgnee.livejournal.com]

You betcha. See you there, kay?

voice

[sings4dragons.livejournal.com]

.... even when those parents tried to cripple their child?

Re: voice

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

See that's not anything close to normal either. You get to be in the club that wants to smack the shit out of the people who don't appreciate things.

[Voice]

[ditchabledate.livejournal.com]

Ain't sayin' anything to the contrary cause I agree with ya, but what's brought this bitch-fest about? You alright?

Re: [Voice]

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

Finally getting all this shit off my chest.

[Video]

[alexis-castle.livejournal.com]

[Alexis flips on the screen and offers Dean a small smile just cause he sounds like he needs one.]

So when I was little I used to get so upset that I didn't have a mom around. My dad dated a lot so there were always girls around but they weren't... mom. And I'd get really upset when she'd come and pretend I was important and then leave again for some show or some guy, depending. But my dad always found a way to make me feel like I didn't need two parents when I felt that way. I mean he... always tried to make sure that he chose me since he knew that it upset me so much that she never did.

I guess all this is to say that I get what you're saying. You should be thankful for what you have. And I am.

Re: [Video]

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

Good. Sounds like you have a great dad.

[backseatangel.livejournal.com]

Do you appreciate what you have?

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

Hell friggin' yes.

1/2

[srsbusinessk.livejournal.com]

Dean...

2/2 SOB sorry, I changed my mind last minute ;;

[srsbusinessk.livejournal.com]

I appreciate the Hell out of what I have. And I appreciate the Hell out of what I had. Our childhood sucked but..I had you, man. And I'd take that over normal any day.

[voice]

[makesfolktalky.livejournal.com]

No such thing as normal 'ere. Anyone who still don't want things t'be normal after gettin' stuck 'ere wants their 'ead lookin' at.

Re: [voice]

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

A-friggin'-men. Some of us aren't cut out for normal though.

[citadelspirit.livejournal.com]

And most people think they have a right to a life with instant respect and authority, where they rule their home, where their lives are their own, and they feel that they're entitled to peace and quiet. To some kind of simple, normal little life. They don't have to reach out and take an existence for themselves. Foolish little humans.

They're ridiculous.

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

Seriously? You're gonna come here and talk to me about foolish humans? You're soundin' an awful lot like an asshole angel right now and I've had enough of those dicks to last a friggin' eternity.

Me and my brother are human and back in our world we saved the whole friggin' world. Not a city, not a country, not a couple of lives. The entire friggin' world so if you wanna foolish human the whole network, be my guest but don't dare come talk to me about foolish humans when I've given up every damn thing in my entire life to save the world so that you'd have a place to be all 'foolish human's about.

[hatedbyfanboys.livejournal.com]

.. I agree with you completely. What I wouldn't have given to have a normal life...

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

It's not so much that I wanted a normal life. I wanted Sam to have one. I could give a shit what sort of life I have.

[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

Is that really such a normal life?

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

Hell yeah. What do you consider normal? That's apple pie and picket fences and all American...normal.

video;

[topaintroses.livejournal.com]

What is baseball? Is it something fathers teach?

Re: video;

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

It's a game. You hit balls with bats. Some fathers teach it.

[rehymenator]

Oh, you're cursed too. You'd never talk like this voluntarily.

[dude-imbatman.livejournal.com]

...

Yeah you're probably right

Still not fair to Sam.